Running For #Office.... Because It's Faster Than Walking

Are any of you - like me - under the impression (god knows where THAT came from!) that any American citizen not in jail or guilty of crimes can run for any governmental office at any time (that there's an election going on) with no prerequisites other than to win, you must receive the majority of votes??? Well did you know that in Pinellas county Florida, in order to run for oh say.... Commissioner.... you have to pay a FEE in order to get on the ballot!? And did you assume that this fee is like oh say..... $25? $50? $100??? Well, like me, you may be shocked (or not) to know that the fee to get your name on the ballot to run for county commissioner in Pinellas county Florida is %6 if you are party, %5 if you are non-party, of the salary of the position which is..........
$5653.20 and $3768.80 respectively!?!?!?
Nothing in this country is free like we think it is!!! NOTHING.
Especially not politics, and it has ALWAYS been this way!
But nobody cares. And those that do, are afraid!!!
So this is what you get... This is the fruit of the seeds our fathers and grandfathers carelessly planted... Or rather carelessly trusted others to plant for them..... Now we, their children and grandchildren, are slaves...... Slaves to corruption, dishonesty, greed..... Slaves to fear.... And the very shackle itself - MONEY.
This is not ok. Not right. Not good. It is NOT just the way things are...  not anymore. They are ALL corrupt!!!!! And if you think there is one that is not..... one that is good and cares about "us".... then YOU are the problem.

#Options Are Running Out

Ok.... One word:
I-don-know-why-i'm-here. One word.

Everything "in me" is OFF in "this world".
Nothing quite matches.
CLASSIC Puzzle scenario!
The pieces LOOK like they fit, and may even fool you as you put them into place.... But in the long run.... You realize in an undeniable way... that this piece just does not really belong in this place.

I feel my inner BULL about to crash the shit out of every fucking pristine little foney ass China shop in my goddamn path!

I am a goddamn ROTTWEILER, who's spent my life trying to be a Maltese!
I'm tired of it..... I'm worn out with it.....
Run with me or get the fuck out of my rude, offensive, inappropriate ass way!

If this describes you too, COOL! We are not alone.

I Have An #Autistic Daughter Too

While the story of Hallee is so so so beautiful and it touches my heart deeply, I cannot help but peer up from my laptop to see my daughter sitting right across the small room from me who is not that different at all from Hallee.
My daughter is Abi. She is 31. She does not have Autism - She is Autistic. She does not have the mind of a child. She has the mind of an Autistic.
She, like Hallee, is so full of life and love. As a kid her nickname was Happy! She always smiled. She is not physically very active because her body just does not cooperate with her wishes very well. And she doesn't smile near as much anymore.
I have never forced her to conform or be normal or fit in to social parameters. She is almost completely non-verbal except for when she's with only me or her sister. And then she just can't shut up! No really.
She types voraciously though with others but cannot verbalize with people unless she is very very very used to them. Which is basically no one. The internet has given her a life and virtual friends and social skills that she could never have gotten any other way. The internet has allowed her to be herself rather than be programmed into a manageable "special needs" person.
She doesn't really have a filter when she expresses herself and is often time misunderstood. She doesn't have a vicious, aggressive, or violent bone in her body! She literally can't kill gnats. But she is very honest from her perspective, and therefore offends people sometimes. She can't see what she's doing. She doesn't understand the subtle nuances of social tact and white lies that all "normal", "neurotypical" people are expected to live by, and do.
I've always encouraged her independent spirit. I've always tried to show her and explain to her how "they" operate. She understands much more than the average person does, but she still does not mimic proper social order like many think she should.
All that to say.... Abi has never had any "real", hang-out-with kinda friends either. It hurts her very very badly just as Hallee was hurt by no one showing up to her party.
Abi really is an insanely cool person! Funny as hell. Smart. Deep! But she is most definitely wired differently.
The only friends she ever had at her birthdays were my friends.
At the age of 31, she frequently feels horrible about herself. She is very aware. She has hopes and dreams that are constantly just out of her reach.
On the one hand she does not grasp how much like so many other people she is!
On the other hand, she also does not grasp the ways in which she's different, and that her differences are why she doesn't fit in, or that this is OK and actually very common for all people who are unique!!!
Anyway.... Abi always has me and her sister. But in her mind and in her heart, she has tons of friends that she hangs out with all the time... but these friends aren't really there. They never have been. And she doesn't really understand why....
It hurts her...
And it hurts me.

The price of non-conformity, choice or not.

#Energy #Report: #June 14 #2016

I feel a huge huge ending of some sort.....
I've been feeling it on and off for weeks.
A 'Goodbye'.
As absolute as death.
And when it's "on", it is strong!
It does NOT feel like death for me.
Just an epic ending. Goodbye.

The heat is weird. Eighty nine degrees today is much more suffocating than eighty nine degrees was 10 years ago!

Oxygen is thin... my lungs struggle to keep up sometimes.
I am a heavy Earth person.... I feel incredible density/magnetism in my body.

Pain is concentrated in my hips now. When I walk or stand I feel about 14 months pregnant - in my hips/lower back. I'm not sure what this is saying......

There is again a lull in my creative energy.

Last night - Monday June 13 2016 - was very very very restless!!!
I reached out to all my kids and my network. (They do not feel like "tribe").
No one person place or thing stood out to me.
Just chaotic electricity.
I even felt a strong jolt in my left finger tips at one point. (I thought of Ashley - LOL)

I know a lot of that energy is from the incident in Orlando and the raging debate among the children of this world. (NOT MINE!) They have come down to a brash yet law abiding ring master who represents the very best of the old dying system, and a criminal who is pure evil and completely deceptive.

I believe this chaos we feel is two negative ends of a magnet being forced together!!! With a third negative end trying to force his way in as if that would be correct and make things better!
This will not work! There will be an implosion! Because none of them offer a future of love and peace, neither will allow humanity to evolve to its next level. So "those" children are FUCKED.

I felt nothing over the Orlando incident.
I acknowledge how painful it is for so many, but honestly I feel that none of it is what it appears to be. And I feel that there is much more turmoil to come.

We are not here to stop it!
We are here to hold the light so that the evolutionary process and period of this cycle of the galaxy can make a successful journey into another generation of expanded souls! We are here to work with Mother Earth and all of the other planetary and galactic members of our galaxy - we are not here to manipulate it into our own version of what should happen.
I did not come to bring peace, but a sword.

My heart speaks of grace and mercy as we all GO THRU!
We WILL go thru. My heart is filled with an offer of grace to those who will receive it so that they may endure this time. My heart is also filled with an offer of mercy to assist any who will accept it.
Not pity.
Not sorrow.
Not fear.
Not regret.
No excuses.
No apologies.

This is the Apocalypse.

#Energy #Report #May 31 #2016

Well there is shit flyin today folks....!
It's TENSE up in h'ya!
Not just bog, but obstacles.... broken roads..... rumbling underneath our feet...
The Truth of the Revelation.
The Dim.
The Fade.
The Distant Wah of a sound that can no longer reach your ears....
The complete idiocy of our primitive 3rd dimensional selves has become UNBEARABLE!
The IRS, The Corporate Anti-Christ, The Corel, The Business that Just Won't Fly, The Heat, The Lies, The Desperate Efforts to Rattle, Scare, & Control.....
And NOW is the moment: What will you believe?
WHAT WILL YOU BELIEVE???

The Frequency changes.... Different realities are coming in.... Like... Unimaginably different! Cosmic, Dreamy, Impossible realities..... Are here. "Here" being where you are supposed to be.... NOT back in the 3rd dimension! These new realities WILL NOT be seen there!

I don't read other people's messages to get this information....
I read other people's messages to see what vibes.... To see who else is getting the same messages as me.... How bout you? Are you Sovereign yet??
Not "perfect". You don't have to be "perfect" by anyone's standards at all ever period the end.

I'm asking are you Sovereign. Intuned - Intuited - Christed. ???

Flux.
Nothing is certain.
Except what you've become certain of.

Flux.
Chaos.

3D is SO HEAVY in my body this year! So heavy....!

Don't flinch. There is not one single reason from this 3rd dimensional plane that may have a place, a hold, a factor in my journey. Believe that!
The lessons have been over since 2014! What...? Was your "graduation ceremony" so fucking lackluster that you didn't even notice you had one...? LOL!!!!!!!!
That's because your ass got sent STRAIGHT to the front lines soldier! LMFAO!!!!

If you don't allow your life to become unreal.... unrecognizable..... 'not your own'.... And if you don't grasp what that means at this juncture...... Then you are probably gonna miss it this time.

Die and go to hell!!!! ???
NO. You only die and go to hell if you want to.
But the Glory..... the New World.... That is only accessible by a completed journey. There is no teaching it. There is no explaining it. It is ONLY an experience, for those who have it.

You're being watched.

By who!?

By those who are watching you.

The "rest of the world" will change.
But WE....... We will transition.