#Realize

It's not so much that you need to fight the "bad" feelings and thoughts that you have, it's that you need to REALIZE REALIZE REALIZE where those thoughts and feelings are coming from!!!!
"Fighting" is resisting and it tends to get you not very far.
REALIZING is a whole other frequency!
That is the secret.
Realize.
Notice.
Observe.
Become aware!
Follow your curiosity. Dig. Investigate. Research.

I've been offering this information for years, free of charge: Things ARE NOT as they appear to be.

Why do you feel bad all the time?
Why do you, a very healthy person, suddenly feeling like shit?
Why can't you stop thinking?
Why are your thoughts obsessing over dreadful things that you have no control over...
Thoughts that make you FEEL bad....
Scared!
???

It is a mistake to fight these things.
It is also a mistake to ignore these things.

Embrace all that you feel, but do it with wisdom. Do it knowing where and why and how.
Do it knowing that you DO NOT hold onto, argue with, bargain with, or compromise with thoughts and feelings that are anything less than pure love, joy, power and perfection.

Your heart will not lie to you!
The issue is that you no longer know how to hear your heart or feel your heart. You have forgotten your heart's language.
And to get it back, you have to want it more than you want anything else.
This is very difficult to do in this phase of our evolution. But not impossible. Impossible is nothing.

It's not about trying. Or trying harder. It's about REALIZING.
Waking up to the lies, the facades, the propaganda and programming... Opening your heart to greater truths than you ever imagined and finding trust to know right from wrong.

Don't get diverted into a long unnecessary detour by accepting the false New Age "truth" that 'there is no wrong' . There is. But it's not to be presumed upon, it's not the kind of wrong that you think.

The secret language is in your heart.
Only there will you find the trust, love, truth, answers, and eternity that we ALL hunger for.

#Blame

The greatest gift you can give yourself, your loved ones, and the entire world is to stop blaming!!! 
Don't blame anybody or anything ever, for any reason!!! 
STOP. Own your own damn life.
Do unto others because that's who you choose to be, not because there's something in it for you! 
Not because you DESERVE! Not because THEY deserve! 
There IS NO BLAME.

There is no inequality.
There is you.
It's all on you. No one else.
Own your own damn life and stop blaming others.

When you encounter injustice, it is an opportunity to see who YOU are, not who the unjust are.
When you encounter injustice, unfairness, inequality, it is YOUR chance to express YOUR unique life, YOUR unique choice in such matters. 
There is no blame.
There is only that moment when you decide what you will tolerate from YOURSELF, and what you will not.

This is what defines YOU, not them, not justice, not equality.
We are all as equal as we choose to be.
Those that have greater challenges, have those greater challenges for a reason. It is their shit to work thru! It is their Karma to balance. And it is NEVER what is seems to be on the outside - Do not judge a book by its cover.
EVERYBODY has a fight. A cause. A challenge. An obstacle.
Some are passed down for generations.
Some, if not most, have obscure origins that no one is clear about and so assumptions take over the truth. Again, this happens in a moment of choice. A moment of choice defines the next steps, the next choices, which influence an entire community... and entire era..... With one choice. One choice at a time. That's how we got from there to here..... But no one was paying attention to the choices or the steps so no one really knows how we got to this state of....
Injustice.
Unfairness.
Inequality.
We assume.
We never consider that we are wrong. Only that "they" were.
No one owes us anything.
We do not deserve.
They do not deserve.

Who are you?

Do you blame the mountain? Or do you respect the mountain for its formidability? If you do not want to traverse the mountain then it is YOUR choice and responsibility to find another path that makes you a happy and complete soul. Blaming the mountain.... is ridiculous.

Many find themselves on the mountain.
Appreciate the mountain. 
Be grateful for, and to, the mountain.

The best gift you can give to yourself, your loved ones, and the entire world is to STOP BLAMING.

A SPECIAL Energy Report: January 15, 2016

Things to be aware of right now!  :
Ancestry
Genealogy
History
Roots
Origins - Original Origins! Like... Ancient, Cosmic Origins....
Common Perceptual Stories - And The Truth

I am a psychoarcheologist. I "Need To Know".

Its all in flux right now....

EVERYTHING has a shadow right now, and the SHADOW is what you need to be looking at, AND understand that it is NOT necessarily what you may think it is....

We are NOT destined to die horrible deaths!!! But masses will die, many in horrible deaths, because it is STILL a choice.

The Enlightened and Awakened are NOT destined to escape. Death in some cases is mercy. But there is a Light Army that will stand and not relent under any circumstances. They cannot be defeated. They have NO fear. They know. Is this you?

"The Rules" no longer apply to you.

Many of us have been "removed" or are being "kept out" of the system FOR A REASON. Stop fighting it. Take this initial moment (initial moment of what...?) to adjust and deal with your mind and all the old programming that is trying to destroy your true self, true life, and true mission for this life and time! NO you are not lazy. NO you are not a freeloader. NO you are not useless. NO you are not a burden. NO you are not a user. NO you do NOT need to try harder!
Go into the shadows, into the darkness, embrace it.... Stay in the cave, on the mountain top, on hiatus, ALONE AND SILENT...
STOP trying to be normal and fit in, you know not what you do!!!

Trust. Find it.  (Clue: It's inside of YOU and no one, no where else!!!)

Petty. Everything you're used to, accustomed to, reliant upon is.... so petty. So insignificant.
Yet it has meaning.... but not the meaning you're used to, accustomed to, reliant upon...

Convergence: Everything is nothing and nothing is everything all at once now. And this is truly a felt, real thing!

The movies.... All true! Secret intel....

I'm reporting this stuff because I feel it. I see it. I sense it. I KNOW it...

As the years progress I find my life harder and harder to believe...
When I say I never fit in... I mean like a MOVIE, I NEVER FIT IN!!
There is a "way" of seeing my life - from MY perspective - that is so right, so easy, so free, so real, so natural to me.... Like, THAT'S the life I was supposed to be living all along... But that life is EVERYTHING that people in this world, in this society, in this culture hate. It is a life of unintentional defiance to everything around me. So biblical...... Which is irritating!
And now.... As shit gets REALLY weird, and I find myself more and more comfortable with those forbidden ideals of who I "could've been", it's still hard to believe.
It's becoming real! The world I feel at home in. But others still don't get it.
Everything is losing its definition. EVERYTHING!
Boundaries are fading... The fabric of reality is getting thin... Literally.
Anything is possible!!!
Bizarre!
Strange Majik is not even what I thought it was!!! It's even deeper, wider, more cosmic.... More "real" and tangible than I imagined.

I feel like the Akash has been opened to me and its SO COOL but way too much information to absorb, integrate, and make useful at this time.... So it's just like a little secret party! LOL
Downloading light codes.... Anchoring new intel.... Integrating higher dimensions into this reality.... Its all so simple, so obvious.... but still SO FUCKING UNREAL!
I really AM this way, and its ok...
It's OK!

So let it be...
Turn it loose...
There's no announcement.
No title.
Just the satisfaction of finding missing fragments and seeing their importance and significance in me, mine, and the whole.
Self
Solitude
Silence

So very cool...

A SPECIAL Energy Report: New Year's Eve 2015

Farewell you inglorious bastard!!!
And thanks..... (for the worst year of my life....)

Energy Report:
Still with the aching joints.
Air is thin.
Always sick but not sick.
What are they spraying us with......? (It's not just the spray....)

Notice?
How matter is behaving differently?
Do you stumble with material objects a lot lately?
Is your hair feeling, looking, acting funny?
Is food strange? All your dishes are turning out perfect all of a sudden... OR All of your dishes are disasters all of a sudden??
The pudding just won't thicken and the dough just won't rise??
Time jumps??

Nothing seems to be working quite right!
Because MATTER is changing.
Atoms are changing.
Gravity is changing.
The atmosphere is changing.
The magnetics of this planet are shifting.

All these things affect how matter behaves.
It's not just the climate and weather that are changing!
The same things causing the climate and weather extremes are also affecting MATTER aka "the material world".
The building blocks of what we know as "real".

You can think its all heeby-jeeby bullshit hype...
You cant think its magic....
You can call it GOD....
You can claim that it's too complicated to understand....
But the fact remains - It IS explainable with science and physics, there ARE those who know exactly what's going on, and you CAN begin to understand what's happening to YOUR world if you so desire and choose to!
Most will just hide behind the familiarity of their illusions.
But those will soon collapse upon you.
There is no place to hide anymore.....

The one thing I wish for when desiring justice/vengeance in my heart toward others who really deserve it is this: I don't just want them to get what's coming to them, I want them to KNOW. I want them to SEE exactly what was wrong with their actions. I want it to be crystal clear. I want them to know exactly why some shitty thing has come upon them.
I want the blinders ripped off!!!

Well......
I'd like you to meet 2016.
She's new. Different. Unlike any year you've ever seen, heard of, or experienced before.
She seems like a hard cold bitch cuz she takes no shits, gives no fucks. She is the Mother of all bastards.
She is not vengeful.
She is efficient.
Her compassion is beyond your programming, beyond your comprehension.... And it is abundant for those who need it.
Not for crying whining snivling assholes who don't want to do the real work, the correct work that this life is all about. Assholes will not be able to survive what's coming.
Like fish can't survive out of water.

The physiology of our material world is changing.
That is the explanation behind  the myriad of weird and strange little quirky things you're noticing that just seem to be on the fritz, wonky, haywire......
Things are changing.
Really.

Pay For Blame

Your're all so terrified of who you really are that you PAY people to take the blame for you!!!

You deceive them by "honoring" them with high titles such as "Doctor" or "Attorney at Law" or "Judge" or "Professor" or "Reverend" or "Father" or "Mayor" or "Captain" or "Senator"........................

If things don't work out, IT'S THEIR FAULT! THEY'RE THE PROFESSIONALS!!!!

That shit is not gonna work anymore humans.

Yes.
We each have special gifts, talents, predispositions, preponderances, passions.... Things we excel at beyond our peers.... Things we really should be doing because we're awesome at it and it blesses the socks off others!
So yes.
Leave some things to those born to do it.
But that never means for us to become complacent and indifferent to our own self responsibility as living beings!
You have faith in anyone with a certificate!! That is NOT the same as being amazingly awesome at what you do!
We ALL know from first hand experience or at least first hand stories of those in our lives, of "Doctors" who should NOT have as much power over life and death as they do!!!!
YOU KNOW THIS!!!
It doesn't matter what school they graduated from, THEY ARE NOT DOCTORS!!!
But because of that damned piece of paper, you grovel and cowl as if an inferior being who does not dare question their deity!

You stupid bastards. Wake up. Stop being afraid!!!
Stop being afraid.
Stop... being.... afraid.

A Profound Notion to End #2015

I don't know that the human race is supposed to evolve completely out of duality... At least not anytime soon!
Not on Earth/Gaia anyway.
I mean, its becoming obvious at this point (2015) that this shit has gone on FOREVER! The rise and fall of "civilizations".... They just keep going thru cycles, The only thing that ever changes are the gadgets, and SOULS! 

Isn't it about the evolution of the SOUL?
Will the SOUL not be evolving forever??

Sure!
Of course!
There ARE other dimensions and realities!
But Earth..... No one on Earth ever evolves to the extent of "getting it right this time"!
It is the same cycle over and over.
The only thing that evolves are SOULS.
And in true Karmic notion, as SOULS evolve there comes a point where they don't have to "cycle" thru this plane anymore.... This dimension..... Earth.

Some key points:

• Earth is Gaia, and she is an entity, she is alive, she is the Mother of humanity.
• Humans are NOT causing Global Warming and Mother Gaia is NOT in danger of being killed off by her offspring, or the human virus! "Climate Change" is a natural, galactic phenomena that is part of a Grand cycle that none of us has been alive to see, nor has anyone in our immediate history. Therefore "humanity" does not see or believe it..... 
• Every time humanity gets to this point in "evolution" it gets buried. Literally. So the only thing left are legends, myths, and a few artifacts that surface over time for the next gen (cycle) to try to puzzle together and figure it all out again. But "figuring it out" is never the point, so they never put it ALL together... And the cycle continues....
• There IS such thing as right and wrong, good and evil! As with all things human, the Buddhist teachings have been taken too far, blown out of proportion and misinterpreted AND not allowed to expand in the SOUL, but instead have been held stagnant and captive by the ego - Turned into rules, laws, and religion.
• Time & space IS the game here on Earth... It IS the matrix.... It IS the very structure of this reality. 

We are all exactly where we should be, need to be, are...
It is all an evolutionary process and NO we are not all in the same place in our evolution.
STOP New Agers, forcing us to all "be one" and the same on all levels!
We are one on a cosmic level that you obviously only "mimic" and do not truly, authentically, experientially understand!
We MUST be allowed the individualization of personal evolvement - THAT is what makes GOD.
Some souls are on level one stage ten.... Meaning they're dense, 3D, dumb as dirt HUMAN and are about to experience "The End" of an age WITHOUT ever "awakening"!!! And THIS is part of their evolution...! They are perfectly placed, perfectly timed, exactly where they are on this evolutionary process..... They are just energy...! (Like eeeeeeeeeevery thing else...!) And this "energy" is finding its way into consciousness on its own pace for its own purpose. It will develop into an identity or it will not - All energy serves a purpose. Let it be.

This LACK of evolvement of any part or level of humanity DOES NOT DOES NOT DOES NOT hinder or change the course of the "graduation" or "leveling up" of other identities or other SOULS!!!!! Their lack of capacity DOES NOT restrict my journey! And yet, we are still all connected, all ONE.
We have had it all wrong (been shortsighted) until now.... This is not the END of all ENDS!!! It will cycle thru again! It is such a Grand cycling that NO ONE in human form grasps it to the extent of passing it down into the DNA so as to become an evolutionary stepping stone.
The "CYCLE" will never phase out.... Because there is so much energy out there trying to become CONSCIOUS and this is (at least one place) where that happens - EARTH.
This is why memories change, fade, erase, resurface in proper time....
This is why people "die"....
This is why we don't carry all our experiences consciously with us all the time...!
We have to EXPERIENCE things raw sometimes.
"Knowing" would defeat the purpose.  Wax on, wax off..... (The Original "Karate Kid" with Ralph Macchio referenced).

2016 Opener

See ya blowin' me a kiss, it doesn't take a scientist
To understand what's going on, baby
If you see something in my eye, let's not over analyze
Don't go too deep with it, baby

So let it be what it'll be
Don't make a fuss and get crazy over you and me
Here's what I do, I play it loose
Not like we have a date with destiny

It's just a little crush
Not like I faint every time we touch
It's just some little thing
Not like everything I do depends on you
Sha la la la, sha la la la
Sha la la la, sha la la la

It's raising my adrenaline
You're bangin' on a heart of tin
Please don't make too much of it, baby
Say the word forevermore
That's not what I'm looking for
All I can commit to is maybe

So let it be what it'll be
Don't make a fuss and get crazy over you and me
Here's what I do, I play it loose
Not like we have a date with destiny

It's just a little crush
Not like I faint every time we touch
It's just some little thing
Not like everything I do depends on you
Sha la la la, sha la la la
Sha la la la, sha la la la

Vanilla skies, white picket fences in your eyes
A vision of you and me

It's just a little crush
Not like I faint every time we touch
It's just some little thing
Not like everything I do depends on you
Sha la la la, sha la la la
Sha la la la, sha la la la

Jennifer Paige Crush 1998