The Story of Lunazul

So.... There is a full moon tonight... (7.31.15) A "Blue Moon".... These only occur every two to three years. Usually.
The last being 2012 and the next being 2018.
So, cool! A Blue Moon tonight.
Also a payday, for us....
It being a payday we stock up on needs and supportive supplements.... Like alcohol.

So...
We're in a dead zone right now. A place where.... Well it's very backward.
No Chase banks... At all...
No Whole Foods, Trader Joe's, Fresh Market...
No farmers markets... Well....... No.... Occasionally some tomatoes, watermelon or peaches on the side of the road, but.... No, not a farmers market...
No Publix, Vonns, Ralphs, Gelsons... Not even a Kroger!
No Cheesecake Factory...
No Dominos...
Barely even any vegetarian food brands in the grocery stores!
And what you do find is outrageously expensive!
No Total Wine & More.
Just none of the big chain stores or brands we shop at. Just WALMART! (X) (we don't shop there!!!)

So deep within the jungle of this dead zone... Is where we've been for the past month. In a secret garden, a temple, a holy place. A place of rest and refuge. A place of great majik and angels.

Our campervan bus was born from this place.
And while she has grown stronger and stronger with each passing week, we still had no name for her.
Until today.

So we took her shopping to gather dog food, cat food, and people food, and a bottle of tequila.
I went into the small (small!) local liquor store and quickly see the Cuervo. But we don't drink Cuervo anymore. I really didn't think I'd find a real tequila made from 100% Agave. But there was this one bottle. And only one bottle. It was reasonably priced considering it was real tequila and where I was.
So we get back to our spot... unload our treasures... put things away and settle in for a snack of buffalo cheddar popcorn and a soda... But first...!
I crack open the tequila and pour just a baby shot in a couple of glasses for me and Ab to celebrate and bless our future in the spirit of the Full Blue Moon tonight!
I noticed a wolf's head on the top of the lid and thought it was cool!  I said, "Abi, its a sign!"
And THEN I noticed the name of the tequila.....
Lunazul !

It means Blue Moon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Our campervan bus's name is now Lunazul. The van is white and blue!


now that's some STRANGE MAJIK!

Lunazul, The Blue Moon Beast (Zulee Beast)

Outside of the Box

If you play outside the box, don't expect it to be pretty all the time!
The reason you get out of the box is to really experience real life.
The box that most can't seem to get out of represents safety, security, protection, normalcy.
If you want more than that, you have to realize "there's a price", or you could also say, there are RESULTS!
Why do most people stay in the box??
BECAUSE SOMETHING MIGHT HAPPEN if you get out!!!
And most people take that as a very scary thing! Most people take that as - What if something BAD happens!?
And they're right!
Something bad may indeed happen if you get out of the box!
If you step out of the lines...
If you don't play by the rules of conformity...
There are no guarantees that things will be as you thought they would be.
THAT is the adventure of getting out of the box!

You are no longer  protected by the borders and walls of a containment, nor are you any longer controlled by them! You are free!  And this freedom is not what conformers have been taught freedom is.

Some people jump outta the box and expect to have their cake and eat it too, as the old saying goes.
No rules and no risk.
It does not work that way.
Somebody somewhere is always going to create and cause a balance. The GOD field or energy field that creates the manifested world we live in demands balance. For every action there is an equal and opposite REaction - energetic balance. You can't have a thousand watts of electricity flowing thru a cable without it having a comparable ground wire, else you'd have all that energy flying and sparking dangerously around serving no purpose and causing harm. Balance.

So why get outta the box if its so dangerous!?
To LIVE!
We are gods and we have the capacity to find balance in all things.
When "something bad" happens, our ability to KNOW what's going on at the roots, and our free will to CHOOSE to proceed with knowing and positive intention (or faith) is what makes LIVING outside the box a great advantage. We grow and expand every time we encounter a challenge and sort it out.
When we encounter a challenge and begin to panic - whine, blame, regret, doubt, fear - we often retreat to the box and swear off ever, EVER getting out again! We may become convinced that "they were right!" and we were never meant to get out of the box. And thus we remain slaves to the mind rather than realize our divinity.

The story of Jesus is one of walking outside the box, encountering challenge and resistance, and walking thru it all, even into the depths of hell, and coming out the other side.
Its that simple!!! It is not, nor ever was, about religious obeyance!!! THAT'S the box!!!
Jesus left ONE RULE - love. ,
Go thru resistance and hell fire, KNOWING what's going on, KNOWING that this isn't personal, FEELING every second of the fear and doubt and anguish and pain, FEELING the abandonment and the loneliness - not escaping it, SURRENDERING to the process KNOWING KNOWING KNOWING, that when you become as broken as you can break, you will realize your divinity - you are immortal, indestructible, and you will always rise from the ashes - if you choose to believe that.

God and Jesus and faith have not a goddamn thing to do with following rules!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cussing drinking smoking sexing gendering racing..... Mean NOTHING!!!
Thou shalt not steal.... Well ok, STEAL!  But there will be balance! Because you are god and do not need to steal! What is going on inside you to make you feel the need to steal?
THAT is what god is concerned about - NOT FOLLOWING RULES! Even Paul in the new testament bible book wrote that the rules were only there to let us know that something was out of balance inside of us! (But they didn't translate it that way so now you're all fucked up, still trying to follow RULES to make yourselves right!)
Thou shalt not lie.... Well we all do, and for various reasons, in varying degrees.... The point is YOU ARE GOD so why do you need to lie? A lie only means you are not willing to deal with the truth. And god is about truth - therefore lying will cause a "balancing" effect. Deal with it!
You won't be sent to hell and eternal punishment  for breaking rules!!!  That's bullshit! You will deal with the balancing effect - or Karma.

Out of the box life.... Only for those with the ovaries to do it.

At Some Goddamn Point....

At some point, we've got to start acknowledging the difference between people with dogs, and people who are responsible...

Because she has dogs....

A sucessful TEACHER, with degrees, all the right documentation,

citizenship, everything responsible people are supposed to have....

But when she is down on her luck she is denied housing....

Because she has dogs....

At some goddamn point... we have got to acknowledge that we can tell the difference between
People with guns, and people who are responsible... not all people with guns are irresponsible...
People with medical degrees, and people who are responsible... not all people with a medical license are responsible...

People with robes, and people who are responsible... not all people wearing robes are responsible...

People with badges, and people who are responsible... not all people with badges are responsible...

People who smoke, and people who are responsible... not all people who smoke are irresponsible...

People who party, and people who are responsible... not all people who party are irresponsible...

People who make mistakes, and people who are responsible... not all people who make mistakes are irresponsible...

People who have kids, and people who are responsible... not all people who have kids are responsible...

People who are freakin weird, and people who are responsible... not all people who are weird are irresponsible...

People who are assholes, and people who are responsible... not all people who are assholes are irresponsible...

People who have a gift, and people who are responsible... not all gifted people are responsible...

People with money, and people who are responsible... not all people with money are responsible...

People who are poor, and people who are responsible.... not all people who are poor are irresponsible...

People who are ill, and people who give a shit....... not all sick people are irresponsible...
GET IT????????!
No.
You don't.

There are at least one of every kind of person imaginable out there! They are free to fly their own freak flag every second of their lives, as long as............

The difference between you and me is not guns, drugs, degrees, money, history, race, temper, marital status, parenthood, neighborhood, faith........

Guns are not dangerous.
Fire and 5,000 pound SUVs are not dangerous.
Pit Bulls are not dangerous.
Books are not dangerous.
History is not dangerous.
Recreational drugs are NOT dangerous.
Cigarettes are not dangerous. YOU HEARD ME!
Wild animals are not dangerous.
Viruses are not dangerous.
Storms, earthquakes, and tidal waves are not dangerous....

The only thing that is truly dangerous... Is human irresponsibility.

The difference between you and me is not guns, drugs, degrees, money, history, race, temper, marital status, parenthood, neighborhood, faith........
The difference between me with a gun and you with a gun is not a badge, or even a safety course.
The difference is I AM RESPONSIBLE. I AM CONSCIOUS AND AWARE. And it is obvious!

The only remedy to anything is inside each and every human being.
Consciousness. Choice. Compassion.
Your Heart!

You pay people who consciously and intentionally abuse and lie to you but you can't give $5 to a broken human soul on the street.......

YOU are the problem.
That is all.

The #Homeless

This is YOUR problem.
This is a direct reflection of where you're at.
Your indifference and your fear of your own sovereign authority is what got them here today.

Your refusal to listen to your intuition and your heart.
The careless abandon with which you succumbed to being controlled and convinced that we are better served by following rules than by feeling, participating in lives and communities, and being genuine human beings.

You allowed this to happen because you did not pay attention to all the warnings.

You never questioned where your food was coming from and now (that its too late) you find out it has been poisoning generations and has been stripped of all its nutritive value....
You never questioned (because you've been taught to be ashamed of trusting your intuition and you've been taught to fear dying) the doctors who seemingly produced miracle cures and remedies for all the disease and discomfort you were told killed thousands upon thousands of your ancestors, when in truth most all of these diseases were new and never seen in massive amounts of the population.
You never put 2 and 2 together and noticed how all these things have coincided....
You never (because of your fear of ridicule and guilt) questioned the use of vaccines and how you've never been told the whole story.... You just assumed you were too stupid to understand and so you trusted blindly...
You found out how toxic the pesticides were that cover all of your food sources, and then proceeded to do nothing about it. Now you mysteriously have generations of damaged people but "they" told you it was because of genetics.... and you believed them..... again.
You never questioned the history they taught you about your country or even your species.... Because that's blasphemy.

So now, you're left with several generations who have been psychologically, emotionally, chemically, and medically mutilated beyond human recognition. They don't have the capacity to "function" in a "normal" way as you want them to..... as you yourself have been trained to do. And so now you blame them.
You continue to carry on as if its 19-fuckin-50 and the world has not turned up-side down! The world most of you grew up in NO LONGER EXISTS!!! Look around!
And yet you blame the poor.......

When actually its YOUR fault that they've ended up like this, hopeless, homeless, nasty, addicted, and incompetent.... and on your streets.

They are malnourished. People think they are doing homeless people a favor by getting them a meal from McDonalds or 7-11.... Their heart is in the right place but this shit is what got them there in the first place.
A lot of these people have seen and experienced things such as war and child abuse that no human should ever have to suffer..... And then they're mind-fucked out of seeking genuine "professional" help. And then YOU blame them...... When you don't even have a fucking clue why they're there.... in front of you..... on your streets.

So you punish them.
Treat them like trash.
Loathe them.

Who you really loathe is yourself...
Something inside of you knows that this is your doing....

They are YOUR children, YOU made them, but its their fault somehow....
I don't mean you physically gave birth to them, I mean your indifference is the cause of their suffering. They are on the streets for you!  To show you that ALL your actions and in-actions have results, consequences... an effect on the entire world.
You cannot separate yourself from your indifference, your neglect, your fears, and the world you have participated in creating.

The reason you praise military members so highly is because you're USING THEM...
If they're fighting that means you don't have to!  That's their job, not yours!
Well that's a delusion that you've created for yourselves because you're afraid to "fight" for your freedom, and the freedom of your countrymen.
Actually, you don't even believe that 'all men are created equal' and that all have the right to 'life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness'. You only believe that good, obedient slaves have that right.

What you are currently referring to as "freedom" is LAZINESS. It is indifference! You are so grateful that someone else can go play in this bloody war of lies so that you never have to participate in what's really going on.... all over the world, and in your own back yard. Homeless people are not lazy dead-beat losers.... YOU are.
Because you are not willing to see how things got to this point, and you are not willing to accept your responsibility for it.
Our "enemies" are NOT people of different nations or religions!!!
Our "enemies" are ourselves.
Our "war" is not to be fought with guns and bombs.... Our war is with our own consciences. Our war is between our mind and our heart, individually. Our war within is now demanding that we choose - obedience to rules, or intuitive, heart-felt doing what we know is right and taking responsibility for our own lives and our communities. Our war is between faith and fear.
And YOU are losing.

How long will you suppress your beating heart in lieu of rules and laws, and government and money.... How long will you allow human beings to be sacrificed for your indifference.... Not just the ones over seas who are prey for greedy war mongerers... But the ones living in your streets... In your town... How long will you judge them without seeing that YOU did this, and YOU are the only one that can change it?
For god sake just love them. Stop judging them. Stop demanding that they be normal by your standard of normal because they can't all do that!!! 
The ones that can, will.
The rest are the ones that you must care for... because they cannot care for themselves. They do not belong in shelters or institutions and certainly not jails.... They deserve the right to have a place that they can call home, a refuge, good food, and simple kindness. People are building Tiny Homes for these people, they don't all need big apartments and all the responsibilities that go with that!!! Utilities and cleaning and maintenance..... That's too much for them to handle.
They just need a spot, a place of refuge.
And they really really really need to be free of the constant fear of being harassed by their own kind.
Love them, help them, and leave them alone. Allow them to have opportunities without forcing them to conform! You don't know why they are where they are..... So stop forcing them to be something they are not.

If you don't want them on your corners or in unsightly cardboard boxes, let them have cart-shelters, and let them eat well.... Because they are YOU.
And until you see that, nothing will get better.

Compassion.
The End.

Get A Job!

Ya know, those of you who say that people who crowdfund, or ask for donations, or try to "raise money" when they are not conventionally employed, or ask for donated supplies to do the things they wanna do should 'work for it, get a job and earn it, just like we did' are right.
People should be self-responsible.

But your shitty, resentful, bitter, selfish goddamn attitude with which you all say this has gah-tta go!!!

FUCK YOU!

You are not offering anything wise or beneficial just because the words you speak are the beginning of a truth.
You hurt and offend tender consciences by being such rude assholes.
Guide them, Mentor them, Offer alternatives that have worked great for you when YOU had that experience. Recommend a fucking book on the subject. But keep your douchebagga attitude for your damn reflection in the mirror!

Self righteous assholes.
You hurt.

Be the change, not the stain.

That is FUCKING all.

Meet the Gypsetters

Where do I begin....???
Well... I guess some backstory....
I have moved around since the day I was born... Never lived under the same roof more than 4 years at a time, except for one time in Arleta California... That was real close to five years - give or take a couple o' months.
The proverbial Wandering Jew (yes, I have a drop or two).
Have wheels, will travel.
I've put as much rubber on I-10 as a trucker!
Lived in 10 different states, and no - my Daddy was not military! Been thru twice as many, just getting from one place to the other.
In my adult life, I've tried to put down roots and the roots just won't take. After 51 trips around the sun, I think I'm detecting a pattern..... (?)  Why fight it.... I've chosen to embrace it.
I've dreamed of just having an RV for most of my life - I mean, how much more perfect could it get!? I'm always home, no leases, no deposits, no rules, yes I DO own my own home, and my animals could not be taxed or discriminated against.
In the past 4/5 years, I've explored Tiny Houses, campers, tents, eco communities, sustainable communities, and of course RVs. I've discovered and joined a bunch of camping, RV & TH groups on facebook. I've learned SO MUCH! People around me are probably sick of hearing me talk about living in an RV! LOL
One of the greatest things I've learned is what an amazing community RVers are! It feels like home.....
So..... One Saturday/Sunday(?) morning I'm going back and forth between Craigslist (looking for my RV) and fb (catching up on the feeds), I actually "ran into" a lady in one of the groups who was the owner of one of the RVs I'd been looking at on Craigslist! When all of a sudden, as I was bouncing between group conversations, "this guy" posts this long-ass advertisement-type post about a nomadic community of RVs traveling the countryside helping people start sustainable communities and a TV show and a hearty 'come on out and join us!'
My first thought was SPAM! Somebody get this guy outta here....
But there was more to it than that. I read the post several times to make sure I wasn't imagining things that weren't actually written. I mean, it was as if this guy had been reading my journals! Too good to be true..... But there was something more to it than that. I was intrigued. I was captivated! Could there really be other real people who had this idea!?
So I commented on the post. Something about how amazing or how I'd be there in a heartbeat.... except I didn't have an RV. Much less a vintage RV as he mentioned in the post that these Gypsies will be traveling in.
He told me to send him my email in a private message and that he'd have someone contact me to see if they might be able to help me out with that. Done!
I guess it was a couple or few days later I get an email from Mike.
Long story short, Mike said they'd probably be able to work something out but that they'd like to meet me. They were having an intro rally in Titusville Florida - about 2 hours from where I live now. AWESOME! I can do that! The catch was.... This happened the first week in February. The rally wasn't until the third week in APRIL!!!!
So I waited. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
Almost time! About a week or so before the date of the Rally, the guy who posted the original post I had seen in the group (David) finally started the countdown posts! Along with all events and contact info and address........... The address.............
Was NOT in Titusville.
It had been changed to Mary Esther Florida. SEVEN hours from where I live now. Wow. Oh no...
My daughter had gotten (luckily!) one additional day off from work in order to go to this event. That was plenty since it was only 2 hours away! Hell we could've gone back and forth each day if it was that close! But now..... What the hell were we gonna do now?
Well, David apologized and I said I've not waited this long to let this get in my way! We wouldn't be able to stay but one day, but this had to happen! So we drove.... Seven + hours, went straight to day one of the three day rally to meet these magical people, stayed one night in a hotel (at seasonal rates!), went back the next day (day 2) to discuss a possible plan for getting me and family into one of their RVs, and then drove back that day - another seven + hours.
Some things I will not elaborate on in this blog:

• The unexpected expenses
• Getting someone to care for our special-needs dog
• The "less-than-perfect" condition of my 4Runner for such a long trip
• My Autistic daughter who doesn't deal well with unplanned situations [Another reason having an RV will be so so so beneficial for us!]
• My self-diagnosed (yet dangerously obvious) "Vehicular Narcolepsy"
• The absolute perfection of almost every aspect of this trip

So how'd it go...???

Well let me just say WOW for starters.

David's family (the Pikes) are so.... genuine, they're almost surreal. (guess that's an oxymoron... *wink*) 

And polite. 

And friendly. 

Even writing this I shake my head in amazement. No, it wasn't just 'Southern hospitality'. I'm FROM the South!  Actually about 3 hours from Mary Esther! And it ain't like that there! Everybody in Mary Esther/Ft Walton Beach was SO FRIGGIN POLITE!!! 

At that point, my girls & I realized we had been in Clearwater way too long without a road trip!

These people really were magical. 

I met "email Mike", and he is so kind and so wise.

I met David and he has such amazing energy!

I met Becky, David's wife, who greeted me with a warm hug just like I was family. We had spoken on the phone and she gave me some info about hotels. Such a genuine, beautiful soul.

I met Dave (jr) and his wife Ana - whom I had also spoken with on the phone.

I didn't get to meet the other daughters as they got in really late from other states where they live.

And of course several others who were friends and extended family.

There were lots of children there... And it was so amazing! They were well behaved!!! Their parents were attentive!!! There was no yelling or threatening. No disgruntled fit-throwers. One little fella loved the Jazz band. One little fella didn't feel well and was kinda fussy, but still did what his Mama asked him to do with no back-talk. These kids were happy, not harshly disciplined. (We were amazed!)

I learned how to change a rear tire on a coach without a jack, (and YES, I remember most of it!).

I learned how to correctly set the steering on a GMC coach, although the last part of that one I'd have to see again as it was a little more complicated.
I learned that motorhomes have bogies and airbags, and unless you know about motorhomes - they're not what you think!
I learned that a coach doesn't move without the airbags.

I learned the significance of the GMC brand of motorhome.

We walked thru a mock nomadic city consisting of GMC motorhomes of various sizes, shapes and colors. One for schooling the kids, one for growing food, one for retail goods and many more...  A literal self contained mobile city! That travels from place to place educating, and developing and building communities with sustainable practices and methods.

I learned that I share David's awareness of the importance of passing real mastery and genuine wisdom down to the next generation so that it will not be lost. Schools cannot do this!

I heard a lot about family, and how family is more than blood. Family is divine synchronicity. I heard more than once that you recognize some people that come into your life as special from the moment you meet them.
So much to learn.  So many questions I didn't get to ask.
We missed a lotta live music!!!

We missed meeting a lotta people who weren't able to be there until after it was time for us to leave, and a potluck dinner that I'm sure will be amazing.

We didn't get to meet any of the dogs... (Dogs & Cats are our people!)

Ab did speak with a couple of beautiful chickens and a rooster though.

No, we did not come home with a coach. This meeting, this touching bases, was not about that. This was about meeting friends and having conversations. This was about feeling the energy to see if we were really what we seemed to be and really on the same frequency. And I believe we are! Turns out they are gonna help us get into an RV, because that's what these people do - help others. There just wasn't time for us to do more on this trip. So it continues via long distance for now.

Me nor my girls wanted to leave! But Jessi had to be back to work at 830am the day after that seven hour return trip and getting in at 11pm. And Ab wasn't feeling well.

But.... I came away so excited about the potential. I feel their dream of going out there and making the world a better place! THAT'S what attracted me to David's post that day.

I know that I am destined to travel in an RV and help people. Just so happens this group of very knowledgeable and experienced people have offered to help get me into a good, sound vehicle that I won't have to wonder and worry about. These guys tear these things apart and rebuild them! Some of these guys wrote the book on these RVs! You don't find people like this - the Universe sets appointments for shit like this!
SO glad I made it to my appointment!

I can't wait to roll with these Gypsetters. 

#TRIBE

People want to do good, people want to give, and give back.

But most people are so lost in programming and fear....

If we who are able will just go out there and start doing it.... Others WILL be inspired and encouraged and will join in. 

They don't need any more sermons, seminars or self help books.

They don't need money making schemes, because money is not the answer.

They need demonstrations! 

The need to see that it's real and not just stories people talk about on facebook.

For reference, please see my entry on the day after my birthday here:  Now - This Is Where I'm Going

#Ally

I have a HUGE ally on my team. She's called #Gaia.
And she is a very conscious player in this game!!!
She seems weak and helpless by current human standards. But she is not.
She is simply presumed upon.
Her image has been exploited by the media as yet another tool for human manipulation.
But rest easy......
She will have the last word.
She is not who you think she is.