Learn To Use Your Dark Side

Use your personality!
No matter how bad it is!

Use that quirk, that flaw, that obsession, that weakness, that obnoxious part of you that makes you impossible to deal with, incorrigible, ANNOYING!!  Even to yourself...!
Did you ever stop to think that it's there for a reason??
We always hear we should use the "gifts" that we have been given.... but what about the annoying shit that we always struggle with and spend our whole lives trying to change (to no avail!), trying to get rid of and get away from!?? What about the things that cause us to not have any friends??
There is a reason you are the way you are.

What can you possibly DO with the worst part of you (in your opinion) that you just cannot get control of???
How can that be used  for  you instead of used to beat yourself up all your life???
How can you learn to USE  your dark side!?!?!?

It is a MASTER LEVEL course to take the worst parts of yourself, and USE THEM consciously and intelligently rather than letting them use you.

Are you MEAN???
Rather than trying so damn hard to "be nice" and "pleasant" and change who you currently are,
Explore that meanness!!!!
What happens if you stop fighting it?
(Please understand I am talking about being a CLASS "A" BITCH!  I am NOT talking about being violent or abusive!!!!!!!)
What can you do to "release" it so it harms NO ONE, but instead becomes empowering...?
Maybe you really are a freakin UFC champion..... ???

The KEY: Do it CONSCIOUSLY!!!!!!!
Its ALL about consiousness!

Maybe if you allowed yourself to explore those bitchy episodes you'd find a part of you that is dressed out in fear and insecurity, and that "bitch" is actually a leader who's afraid to act like one.

Do you know that you're an asshole?

Do you realize for yourself that you are way too fat?

Are you actually very aware of the fact that you lie so that you don't have to really deal with things?
Do you not dress yourself well?

Can you see yourself treating people like shit - as you do it?

If the answer is YES to any of those questions, that means that you're AWARE!  And that is the first step.

If you are conscious of those little things as they're happening then you have the POWER to slow time!!!
Observe...
And then CHOOSE!!!

Explore that "flaw" in real time!  See who you really are.  See what you're made of and what you're capable of.  Watch it as it happens!  Feel it!  Change it, direct it, add to it, stop it altogether...!  It's your choice.

Once you "get in there" and really experience these bad habits or destructive behaviors, then there's no more fear, no more guessing, no more feeling powerless....  You were THERE!  That's called experience, or as some like to call it - life!  You were the all powerful being who got to choose how that scenario played out.  You owned it!!!  

And now you've actually earned the right to say, I am who I am, and NO ONE controls my life but ME.

Embrace your dark side.  Stop running from it.

NOTE that if you think or feel an overwhelming urge to HARM yourself or others  S T O P ! ! ! 
This is NOT OK and is a sign that you need to reach out for some help.  It is never ok to harm others while experimenting with life.  

The point is to discover better things within yourself and realize that you CAN be the master of your own life. Stop being a helpless victim.  Stop hating your inner bitch and listen to her!

Love yourself.
"Yes, I am a bitch.  I am fully aware of that, and how I rub people the wrong way. But I am no longer afraid to ask myself 'Why?', and to become the BEST bitch I can be! "

Why don't public places have more Fruit Trees?

We are so fucking pissed off and resentful that we allow ourselves to be enslaved by greedy assholes...... That we become greedy assholes!!!!!

That's why...!

"If I have to slave away just to survive (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), then I'll be god-damned if that lazy fucker's gonna eat for free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Such monstrosity.... Such hatred..... Such loathing of life and freedom and all that's good... Because YOU allow  yourself to be enslaved.
It's YOU that you hate!
It's YOU that you're pissed off at!
YOU feel guilty.
YOU feel like a worthless, powerless piece of shit....

And so you bully others to try to un-do this list of truths about YOU.

YOU're the reason people are going hungry . . .   It's all there to show you what's inside of YOU.

Ode To The Father

Soo..... This month of June 2014 started off with my Mom letting me know that my Dad went to the hospital because it was difficult for him to breathe. Turns out he had pneumonia and they put him on a ventilator. Each report had him getting worse, not better. He could not breathe on his own. He was not responding to treatment. He ended up in "critical" condition. Everyone was scared.  Really scared! This wasn't like him. He's 76 but only on paper. To meet him you'd never know he was that old! He's perpetually young, super intelligent, funny as hell, always well dressed and well groomed. He has had several major heart surgeries and sailed thru them all. So THIS was not expected. And just as suddenly as it came on, he took yet another unexpected turn after over a week of only getting worse. He started getting BETTER!!! He is off the ventilator and raising hell again... ;) .  He is not a good patient.  He is not the sickly type. Talk about a drama king.... all this for a Father's Day build-up....?  Really Dad...? This guy.....!  He is indeed one of the most loved Father's on the planet!!! It hurt like hell that I could not get to him and be at his side thru this. My Mom and my step sisters held him up night and day, relentlessly, never leaving his side. I knew from the beginning that he was ok. But life, death, and fear are funny, powerful energies.....
I spoke to him in spirit during the days that he was unconscious. I told him not to leave. I told him we were not done. I know he heard me. Just like he heard my little sister say to him on her birthday in the middle of all this.... "All I want for my birthday is to see those beautiful blue eyes of yours," .... And he opened his eyes, looked right at her, and then closed them again. Needless to say she silently flipped her shit!!! LMAO
No Larry Eure, we are not done, you and I.
You OLD FART!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU.