#Homelessness : A Perspective

Homelessness....
Headline news.  If ya ain't seen it, ya ass been under a rock!
Good-hearted people gettin arrested for feedin homeless folks....
Homeless folks gettin run off and kicked out of every little spot they try to rest in...
Their shelters torn down and destroyed by the very ones sworn and paid to protect citizens...
Where has our compassion gone, where is our heart nation, what the hell is wrong with us!?

 Other folks take a backpack and a tent into the woods and live in the wilderness for the weekend!  And they do this on purpose!  And they enjoy the hell out of it!  And they can't wait to go back and do it again!  They actually consider it a VACATION!

"Financially-comfortable" folk givin up "dream jobs", successful careers, years of dedication to a company or business....
Sellin all their shit or giving it away....
Sellin the McMansion, givin up on traditional norms.... And headed for the road!  Off into the woods! Some get RVs and just travel... Some find land and build an off-grid homestead or community where others can come and participate in the same lifestyle on shared land...

What the hell people...!?
Why do they do this...?

What's the difference between being homeless and being homeless???
Why is no one noticing this?
What is the difference between being homeless......  and being homeless???

Come on.... It's obvious!
Perspective.
State of mind.
Perception.

Most of us probably assume that most homeless people are mentally very ill, or complete derelicts too lazy and no good to hold a job down so they just con people in order to live.
Sweetie, there are multi-millionaires in 3-piece designer suits who fit both these descriptions!
So those aren't the reasons for homelessness.

Perspective.
State of mind.
Perception.

NOW its time... to finally realize... the true root and source.... of what ails us.

What's the difference between getting kicked out of your home because you can't pay someone to live there....
And choosing to leave your home, empty, for a weekend or week or longer.... so that you can go enjoy yourself somewhere else...?
You all answered the same thing and I know what it is...
Money is the difference!
Having a job is the difference!
I earned it!!! is the difference!

There is something inherently wrong with this reasoning.
Let's break it down....
Homeless people have "no money", "no job", they've "earned nothing".
The next level of humanity in our current society is "the hood", "the trailer park", "the projects".
These people have "some money" but not enough to be counted as respectable citizens. Most of them don't have jobs, and the ones that do are either "criminal" or minimum wage service jobs that require little to no skill or specialties. But most of them are on public assistance so again, they've "earned" nothing.
Then you have the minimum wage workers who "work", and "earn" and "have money" but still live in poverty. They never take that vacation into the woods for enjoyment because tho they have money, they don't have enough  money.  They only "earn" enough to survive and stay off the streets. They may or may not live in the hood, the trailer park, or the projects. But they certainly don't live in a nice home in a safe neighborhood.
Then you have the skilled workers who get paid higher wages commensurate with their education/skills/experience, or they get paid a salary.  These have "good jobs", "plenty of money", because they've "earned it"  thru higher education and dedication to a business, company or corporation. Somehow tho, this group seems to report struggling to survive all too often, just like those who "earn" less.
Then you have "the owners". The business owner, the company president, the corporate CEO. They earn so much money they don't really have a care in the world.
But how'd they get there.....???
Education? It helps some, but not always.
Pure skill at what they do?  Well what do they actually do, is the first question...!? How much "skill" does their job description actually require? And is it a genuine skill, or crafty manipulation? Or robotic processing of instructions...?  Doing what you're told  is not a skill...
Experience? Worked their way from fry boy to corporate exec..... Yeah no. (rarely).
So this begs the next question.... Did they earn their way  into that paygrade?
Or were they lucky? (married into it, inherited it, won the lottery, know the right people...)
Or were they shady? (!!!!!!!) Dishonest, consciousless, irresponsible, bully...
And if their rise to the top is legit - isn't it obvious that there's something very special going on in their life...? Luck, blessing, skill...... Whatever it is, it is indeed obvious that we don't all have it!

So back to the homeless people.......
Are they a "sub" group of human being?  Are they not just as genetically human as you or I?
Dishonesty, irresponsibility, criminality, illness, consciouslessness, hard work, education, skill....
Which one of these separates the "haves" from the "have-nots"?  The homed from the homeless?
I'll tell you which one...

Perspective.
State of mind.
Perception.

 Two words.... Robin Williams.

There are so many things about the human psyche that we just have not put the effort into understanding as common people - intellectually or emotionally.
We have relied on "professionals" to tell us everything because we're stupid and they're not..... They know and we aren't smart enough to understand it, because its too complicated for our simple minds... Professionals tell us what's wrong and give us prescriptions and its supposed to fix everything. Education is supposed to guarantee good jobs. Going to the doctor is supposed to guarantee good health. Going to church is supposed to guarantee peace of mind and a pure soul. Believing in the FDA, the USDA, the FBI and the CIA.... government agencies, rules and regulations are supposed to protect us from..... What? Supporting the military is supposed to ensure our freedom.... To do what? Feed the homeless??? Voting is suppose to ensure that the country is operated in a fair and democratic way, the way we all want it to operate.
But by and large, NONE of this is true!

So where.... do the homeless on your streets..... fall?  Where are they in this mass of perspective and opinion and freedom?
Those who live in "substandard" housing.... the hood, the trailer park, the projects.... Why don't these areas of humanity ever improve??? Many of them get "free money"! Why don't they use it to improve themselves?  The same reason Robin Williams didn't.
There are things about the human psyche that we have not put the effort into understanding.... Because it's easier to "blame", "accuse", "judge", "pass the buck".....
When oh when oh when humanity, will you realize that it is a human-heart issue and that it has nothing to do with all the shit-reasons you can come up with as to "why" things and people are the way they are?
I'd really like to see those that open their mouths with their almighty opinions and solutions step into the shoes of the ones they criticize.  I'd really like to see how they handle it and what they'd do to improve their situation.

Yes, there are those people in this world who do have that special magical gift that allows them to "find a way" and "succeed" no matter their circumstances. But most don't.  Most are left finding a way to suppress their truths and cope with their disappointments and just follow the ass in front of them and call that "success".  That is a lie.
We need to connect with one another.  We need to look one another in the eye and see one another's soul. We need to realize "why" rather than reasoning things away and blaming things on someone else.

The reason their are homeless people is because of you.  You have disconnected from the heart of being human and just do what you're told, follow the crowd, trust your lives to greedy strangers who are using you and turning you against your own fellow human beings.

Stand in their shoes..... Walk in their shoes.... Feel what they feel, see thru their eyes, make sense of things with the same capacity that they have to work with..... Carry their pain and confusion and hopelessness.... Deal with their sicknesses. Hold their shame. Fight your way out of that and then tell me your story again.

Their perspective.
Their state of mind.
Their perception.

You couldn't last a week in their shoes. They are soldiers in an army you don't even qualify to join. They're doing you a service you cannot see with your eyes, only with your heart. The least you could do is feed them, clothe them and give them shelter. Who knows how they may respond... to real love.

We Are

WARNING! GRAPHIC IMAGES DISPLAYED TO MAKE THE POINT...

It makes it much easier to grasp the reality that "we are god" if we simultaneously realize that "we are satan" too.


You all wanna doubt, question, or blame god...
Or blame satan....
Well at what point are YOU supposed to be responsible!?

Legislation, regulation, rules, fines, penalties, punishment......
Has any of that worked AT ALL?
EVER?

The problem is simple.
The problem is you.
Not the cops, not racism, not starvation, not inflation, not minimum wage, not education, not immigration, not drugs, not sex, not rock & roll.... not religion, or government....
Not god.
Not satan.
Not evil or darkness.

You.

Human suffering, violence, abuse, cruelty, pain..... Worshiping god and hating satan does not make the world a better place and it does not change your heart or anyone else's. You are free to choose, and the price of that freedom is responsibility. 

Stop blaming god for your stupidity!
And stop blaming satan for your irresponsibility!

Racial Injustice in America

I am going to state the obvious, at least from my perspective.
Racial inequality still exists in America.
I was born and raised in Mississippi. As were my parents and grandparents and at least some of my great-grandparents. I am qualified, to say the least, to comment on racial inequality.
I grew up hearing the word nigger used freely and matter-of-factly. Proper white folk said "Niggra" (that's Negro with a Southern accent), but the only reason they said it either way was to point out the difference between white from black. And those aren't the only racial identifiers I grew up hearing. And it wasn't always about black folk and white folk.
Yes, "black lives matter".  But no more than any other life.
Yes, white people have a superiority complex whether they like it, recognize it, accept it, or not.
No, not all black people are the same. Nor are all white people, or Jews, or Indians, or Asians... etc, etc etc...
Yes, police "authority" has gotten out of control. But not all cops are "bad".
The court system, the prison system, the Constitution of The United States of America, government, elected officials, military..... Its all out of control.
It is literally ALL out of our control. It's too big. No one could possibly understand it all. Not even those who are in it professionally!
Laws, rules, regulations..... Taxes, fines, penalties....
There's no where to turn.
The gays fight to be treated right.
The blacks fight to be treated right.
Those with disabilities fight to be treated right.
People fight for animals to be treated right.
Black lives matter... but no more than anyone else's. Racial inequality still exists in America.
But you are all fools to think its "simply" because of race.
Or gender orientation, or religion, or nationality..... Or tax bracket, or political affiliation, or even criminal status.... Feeding the homeless...??? Really???
Why is marijuana illegal?  Raw milk is also illegal!
Why is it illegal to NOT be connected to the power grid?
Why do organic farms get raided and everything they've worked so hard to build get destroyed!?
Is it the same as cops destroying a tent city of homeless people?
You are most likely a pawn in this game.

Why do white people assume that young, black, jobless, males who steal are lazy and stupid?
Why!?
Why do white people feel the way they do about black people?
Why do black people blame everyone but themselves for their problems?
Black lives matter.
If only black people would realize this.

What do you want black people?  Cops to stop shooting your kids?
What do you want white people?  Black people to become a working class white slave like you?
White people are leaving their jobs in droves and returning to self sustaining lifestyles... so what again is it white people want from black people???
Can you see yet that this is not a race issue?

Excuses, excuses, excuses.....
Always somebody else's fault.

INJUSTICE is just as blind as justice, and it is happening to all of us. Some feel it more than others, but this is NOT a race issue, it is a human issue!
And the only solution is to examine your OWN heart and mind.
Plenty of white people are abused by the law daily.
Why?
Because they're doing something that "The Man" will not tolerate. They are doing things independently and responsibly and they don't need The Man anymore.  And The Man don't like this at all.....
So The Man stirs shit, and pits us all against one another. Race against race, religion against religion, gender against gender, rich against poor, and now the homeless!!??

What the hell are we all doing?  All of us - black white red yellow beige brown..... What the holy fuck are we doing.....?

One question motherfucker.... Where is YOUR heart? Not what color is it!?
That's the only question we need to ask.
And YOU are the only one with the answer.
Only YOU can change the world.... And the only way to do that is wake up!
Be the change.
We are ALL slaves!!!
We are ALL being played!

White people get mad at black people because they don't have a job and live on welfare.
Black people get mad at white people because they won't give black people jobs.
White people give black people jobs but they don't want the job. Its not as good a job as the white man has. So the black people feel persecuted AGAIN!
Did the white man work his way up to that job? Yes. Worked his ass off to the get there. So the white man wonders why the black man won't do the same if he wants the same money...?
Maybe black people don't want jobs. Maybe they just want to be left alone.... to smoke weed. Only problem with that is who pays for their lives?  Welfare? Thievery? Selling harmful substances? Or worse? Why do white people see black people this way!??
Why...?
This is a stereotype.
Gays coined the phrase "in the closet". Black people don't have that luxury. For the most part, neither do women. All have been treated badly because of the body they were born into. Treated badly. Discriminated against for no legitimate reason. Judged unfairly. Paid unfairly. Opportunities stolen.
Even violently assaulted or killed for not being.... a white male.
If you don't like the way things are, change them.
Why do cops shoot and kill black males? Because they hate them? Or because they're afraid of them?
Why do people shoot and kill pit bulls? Because they hate them? Or because they're afraid of them?
They're not all the same. But you never know. The ones that are truly dangerous are that way because of human ignorance. Human ignorance..... human ignorance....
Do you kill what you fear and don't understand? Or do you evolve and learn how to do things differently?
With proper wisdom and nurturing, pit bulls are sweet, loyal, loving, trustworthy members of a family. Even ones that have been abused. But if you don't know what you're doing with a pit bull, they will hurt you. Even kill you.
How far from this truth is the plight of the human black male...?


Bill Cosby. Black male. Net worth $350-$400 million dollars. Successful, legitimate career.
Good person???
Jose Mujica. Male. Neither black nor white. President of Uruguay. Donated over 90% of presidential salary to the poor.
Ummm.........


(long silence)



Former Slave
It's not about race...

Pay The Guru

Do not allow your truth to be intimidated by the truth of a more financially successful guru than yourself. People pay for what they want. And it's rare to find anyone who will pay for painfully deep truths. 

The "Other" Depression

I became interested in Tiny Houses on wheels several years ago when I discovered some youtube videos on the subject, in my quest to study and prepare for a mobile lifestyle - namely an RV. At the time, only a few short years ago, there was a limited amount of info, but thru the subsequent years I discovered more and more... Videos, websites, communities, and eventually facebook groups.
The first group I joined was the Florida Tiny House Enthusiasts.
It was awesome to be amongst so many like-minded people, even tho virtually. And what was even more awesome was that many in the group were very local!  I was excited.
One of the moderators of the group, who was very present and involved in its daily vibrancy was a guy named Robert Stewart.  He really kept things thoughtful and pertinent to the idea of the Tiny House ideals of community and practical movement toward making these dreams come true for people. He inspired so many in-depth discussions that helped people sort out the realities, the necessities, and the possibilities.  He created an environment that inspired and allowed connections to be made in order to actualize the TH community here in this area.
He arranged events on occasion where members of the group could meet up and enjoy, not only networking with information, but the company and conversation of like-minded people.
I went to one such meeting... There were only five of us who met at the Chatterbox inside Dunedin Lanes bowling alley for breakfast.
That was the one and only time I met Rob in person.
What an amazing guy!  His energy was so genuine and kind and intelligent.  Truly a like-minded person.
I was so thrilled to have met with this group, even tho it was only 3 other people besides my daughter and myself.  I looked forward to the next one, in hopes that more would be able to attend. With Rob as "leader" or at least initiator of this local group of enthusiasts, I was very excited about the possibilities.  This guy was for real.  This meeting was back in August (2014).
Over the months after the meeting I noticed that Rob seemed less and less present in the fb group. I considered that maybe he was busy and/or a little frustrated with trying to allow people their own space to "get on the same page".... I know he was dissappointed that so few had come to that meeting. I thought maybe he just needed to back away for a while and breathe.
I also thought several times of friending his personal page because... Wow! He really was such a cool guy!  But I have my own issues in my own head.... And I allowed my own discomforts and mental programming to prevent me from ever having personal conversations with Rob outside of the group.

And then this Saturday evening I read a post on the FTHE group page, that changed everything.
I simply could not believe it when I read that Robert Stewart had passed away this Halloween weekend...  From the context of the rest of the post it felt as tho Rob had taken his own life, and indeed that was the case. I instantly thought of all the times I had thought about contacting him.... Just to talk tiny houses and other weird shit going on in the world around us that I know he too was concerned about...  I was stunned.  Most had no idea of the personal pain he was carrying and battling with.  From all the posts that began to pour in about the news, everyone knew him as that same great guy that I saw.  I only met him once and yet I feel the hole left by his absense in my heart.
I believe that is because he was a very deep, sensative and genuinely good soul.

This is not a blog about how dangerous depression is and how you should always seek help...
People think they understand depression because they've been depressed before.  But I'm here to tell you that there is a different "depression" that only the gifted, the ultra-sensative, the deeply creative experience... And it is like comparing ..... Toy Story to The Exorcist.
You don't  understand it and there is no  simple fix!  Certainly not from people on the other end of a hotline or from a prescription. [This is not to say that those things aren't very useful and important to others!!!]

There is an intensity in our world today that has not been experienced by any generation in our history as a race of beings on this planet.  It is not your imagination, it is very real!  It is very different!  It is very intense!  And for many, maybe even for most, it is scary!
We are questioning and calling out all the crap we've been told, all the lies, all the misconceptions... We're restless and irritable with newness on the inside but met with resistance from the old gaurd on the outside.  This can play out in any number of different scenarios.... Rob had his own version.

If you feel like you may need to reach out to someone - whether you understand why or not - reach out.  Have a conversation.  Look into this person's eyes.  Feel this person's heart beat.  And listen with your gut.  Sometimes these people that are so deep and sensative just need a thread... A connection... Just one reason to stay.

The pain can overwhelm so that we cannot see how POSITIVELY we have impacted people's lives and how important it is for us to stay.  Yes!  We are warriors of a sort!  The energy we radiate into this world just by "being" is so important to everyone's growth as a race of beings!  And this is why the battle in our hearts and our minds gets so very, very intense.

Our civilization is evolving quickly and right before our very eyes, as opposed to "in history books"! I believe Rob Stewart was one who was on the leading edge of blazing the new trails. He had a deeper vision of how humanity could be and he felt it all so deeply. The pain of disappointments and set-backs and life events are so amplified in the ultra sensative. Amplified! Because without the depth of passion and vision, that many say is insanity, this world would never change, because change is scary.
And it was on this level that I felt a connection to him....

I am here to say:  Help us to see and remember that no matter our internal battles, something greater than ourselves is going on and we are helping people for the good whether we see it or not!!!
THIS is the message that I need to hear sometimes, because yes, I am one of those sensatives... And yes, I know that darkness that is below even the pit of depression... And I know that ultimately if we feel no reason to be here anymore, we cannot hold on.

We do not see things like others do. We do not feel things like others do. We don't buy the bullshit and we have no faith in anything that can't move our hearts. Let us be who we are, but when we get swept under the rip current remember that there is no reasoning or arguement.  You cannot convince us.... You can only help us remember, and help us find our reason to stay.

My "anchors" are my two daughters.
If  Rob could read all the posts about how much he helped and about how special he was to so many... About how important his presence was to so many....
He needed a mighty powerful reason to stay and continue his personal battle within. He obviously felt we would be fine if he just ended that battle. 

October 8 2014

Sitting under the blood moon eclipse on the beach I had 3 people on my heart and only a few more on my mind.
Clarity.
Beauty.
Come what may.
I went with the five shells I found yesterday at Honeymoon Beach.
I came home with four.  One was removed without my interference.

Lots of energy!!!!
ADHD type of energy.
I experienced some frustrated energy.  I allowed without judgment.  I could feel the Aries energy!

Excitement.  Intensity.  Child-like.  Wreckless.  Fearless.
Feel it all.  Let it be.
I felt the work.  I felt things leave my being.
A totally new existance!

Clarity beyond 3D.

I Don't Wanna Be Here Anymore

Everything and everybody around me is sick. Nothings getting better. There is no healing only dying. There is no abundance, there is no plenty.... Only suffering and despair and getting by... Surrounded by sickness my whole life and never any healing..... What fucking "law of attraction" is that assholes????? I don't wanna be here anymore. No hope. No hope. Only dispair and disappointment. 50 years I've waited.... Believed... Held on... And nothing. Nothing has gotten better. Let go to make room for the blessings! Only to be refilled with more pain, more empty, more impossibilities. There is no joy. Only a perpetual mill of heart break. Spiritual capitalism. Forever chasing the carrot.... Hope deferred makes the heart grow sick but desire fulfilled is a tree of life. Proverbs 13:12

I feel like acid....