I Don't Wanna Be Here Anymore

Everything and everybody around me is sick. Nothings getting better. There is no healing only dying. There is no abundance, there is no plenty.... Only suffering and despair and getting by... Surrounded by sickness my whole life and never any healing..... What fucking "law of attraction" is that assholes????? I don't wanna be here anymore. No hope. No hope. Only dispair and disappointment. 50 years I've waited.... Believed... Held on... And nothing. Nothing has gotten better. Let go to make room for the blessings! Only to be refilled with more pain, more empty, more impossibilities. There is no joy. Only a perpetual mill of heart break. Spiritual capitalism. Forever chasing the carrot.... Hope deferred makes the heart grow sick but desire fulfilled is a tree of life. Proverbs 13:12

I feel like acid....

#Peace

I don't know what people expect when they pray for peace!
It's not a big fluffy magic blanket spread over us by angels!!!
To ask for peace is to ask for a resolution... for the things that cause the anxiety to be resolved!
You can't truly RESOLVE things without facing them, dealing with them, sorting them out.
The way to peace is to work thru the conflict.  It cannot magically "go away"!!!
That's not what peace is.
So when you ask for peace... Wake up and realize what you're asking for and stop whining when it comes!